Sharing my new normal type of motherhood
For a long time, I carried the feeling that I had failed it. Failed the space I had created, failed the rhythm of writing, failed the people who had taken time to read. But mostly, I felt like I had failed myself. Writing has always been something I turned to when I needed clarity, and yet when I needed it most, I couldn’t find the words.
Sometimes it’s not about right or wrong. Sometimes it’s just about honesty. Growth. Survival. And the hard truth is, not everyone will like who you become in the aftermath.
Thought I’d start writing again on my wee blog with the trend …Probably Needed a Hug… ❤️But I kept going anyway. I’ve been feeling the pull to write again. To open up my laptop, let the words fall out, and share a little bit more of the messy, totally unpredictable journey that’s brought me to [...]
I recently turned 40 and do you know what, I'm 'A' OK with that! I'm happy to be moving forward into a new decade, a new chapter into more unexpected paragraphs in my life's biography. I'm feeling slightly liberated at being my now F*** IT FORTIES!! I can fully see why my gran reached a [...]
5 years on has brought a lot more smiles, laughs and a shit load of more dark humour than we as Glaswegians already have in abundance. I've lost count of the times we've said "if you don't laugh you'll greet" over the years with the downright funny AF real-life problems we've found ourselves in.
I'm not really sure how to put this year's feelings into words. It's 4 days before Christmas and this year's festivities have been flooded with heartache and the fact that we will always have 1 of our children missing from our arms. She will never be here to help put the baubles on the tree [...]
This title sure sounds narcissistic to me, conceited even? But I do and I'm kind of lost at where to go next with it. For the last 4 years, I've been trying to cope with the death of our baby girl in any way I could. Most of them probably broke every "Get over grief" [...]
I remember the days well where I would've bloody died of embarrassment going for a coffee and sitting in somewhere myself but now, my god these small moments are bliss! I’m back #workingfromhome and I’m lucky enough to have been able to create a little office space for myself there but one thing that I [...]
I’ve been feeling a bit off lately - like that feeling you get when the grief wave hits but this felt different somehow - I couldn’t work out why until I realised that subconsciously this would be the year our wee Francesca would be starting school this week. And it hit me like a ton [...]
I have really missed writing in my wee blog but I just couldn’t find my way back to it amongst the covid sh** show that had been the last couple of years. Like many others dealing with the loss of their child I had to work out a way to cope with the darkness and [...]
FOR FRANCESCA 
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