Sharing my new normal type of motherhood
"How do you cope?". This is a question I have been asked many times since Francesca's death by other mummies in my situation and I honestly cant give you an answer. I wish I could. I wish I could send you a bigĀ manual on how to keep going , jeez I wish someone would [...]
Looking back through Leo's pictures since his arrival in January makes me smile so much. I don't think i'll ever get bored of taking 150 pictures of him a day.Ā One of my favourite things to while he "micro"Ā naps isĀ looking through all the pics of his little outfits he's worn, most of which we've been lucky [...]
As I sit here writing this I still cant believe my baby boy is here! I had 9 months of my brain telling me over and over again that I shouldn't have any faith as something will go wrong and we will need to relive losing another child, that weĀ WILL go home empty handed from [...]
And what a year its been. Just like that our baby girls 1st birthday has been & gone. I still struggle to get my head around what has happened to us. I mean around this time last year I was in labour ready to give birth to a baby but itās not the one I [...]
I previously wrote about the absolute lack of aftercare whenĀ our baby died in terms of the physical care and how it can affect the families left alone at the worst time of their lives.Ā The other part of the aftercare that reallyĀ let us down was the availability for mental health care in our area. I think [...]
With both my babiesĀ I haveĀ sat for hours imagining how their little nursery would look and what little bits and pieces would look perfect in there. I have sat for (far too many obsessive) hours scouring my favourite Instagram and Pinterest accounts for #nurseryinspo taking note of where I could track down similar itemsĀ and build [...]
In our home the happiest little room was always Francesca's nursery and a place that always made up smile when we went in. It was one little room full of hope, dreams, love and light and I spent many many hours in that room preparing for her arrival. I used to go in, chuck on [...]
There are many things that let our little family down before and after Francesca died. Its something that I feel anger and upset towards each time I think back over these things and the bottom line is the support is simply not there for those in our situation. Now I can only speak from [...]
I knew it would be a given to be asked this question as soon as we knew we had been blessed with another little miracle. We both braced ourselves and rehearsed to each other and in our heads what we would say to those who asked if this little bump in question was our first [...]
So here I am saying the words I never thought I would be able to say again ... I'm pregnant... and our little baby boy is due sometime January 2019. I feel so blessed to be given another chance at possibly bringing one of my children home with me and I say possibly because my [...]
FOR FRANCESCA 
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