Sharing my new normal type of motherhood
"when you're a mum you'll understand".. a knife right in the gut when this was said to me whilst I was pregnant with Leo. A flippant comment made with the best intentions and it still affects me when I think about it 6 months later. In that moment I wish I had screamed that I [...]
These last 4 months since Leo was born has flew by...actually the last year since Francesca died then was born has. What has actually happened to this massive portion of my life. 2018/19 has disappeared in a haze of grief and happiness all at once. I think i've been living in some crazy twilight zone where time [...]
"How do you cope?". This is a question I have been asked many times since Francesca's death by other mummies in my situation and I honestly cant give you an answer. I wish I could. I wish I could send you a big manual on how to keep going , jeez I wish someone would [...]
And what a year its been. Just like that our baby girls 1st birthday has been & gone. I still struggle to get my head around what has happened to us. I mean around this time last year I was in labour ready to give birth to a baby but it’s not the one I [...]
I previously wrote about the absolute lack of aftercare when our baby died in terms of the physical care and how it can affect the families left alone at the worst time of their lives. The other part of the aftercare that really let us down was the availability for mental health care in our area. I think [...]
There are many things that let our little family down before and after Francesca died. Its something that I feel anger and upset towards each time I think back over these things and the bottom line is the support is simply not there for those in our situation. Now I can only speak from [...]
I knew it would be a given to be asked this question as soon as we knew we had been blessed with another little miracle. We both braced ourselves and rehearsed to each other and in our heads what we would say to those who asked if this little bump in question was our first [...]
So here I am saying the words I never thought I would be able to say again ... I'm pregnant... and our little baby boy is due sometime January 2019. I feel so blessed to be given another chance at possibly bringing one of my children home with me and I say possibly because my [...]
How did it get to July already! This year is flying by with every day being one more away from the last time we will ever see our baby girl and one more day into this grief journey that we never asked for. I have days where I catch myself just blankly staring at a wall shaking [...]
Since my gran found out that Francesca had passed she had wanted to do everything she could for us to help us make memories and mark Francesca’s existence on earth. One of my grans great loves is her garden and nurturing her plants, trees and watching them grow into colourful wonderlands. When I was a [...]
FOR FRANCESCA 
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