For Francesca Begins

“A little blog about trying to live life after the loss of our child while trying to be a parent to our wee miracle. Everyones journey in grief will take them in different paths and this is mines …”

Thank you for stopping by this little blog which I created in memory of my daughter Francesca Alexis Johnston who was tragically stillborn on the 8th February 2018. Our little angel made it all the way until I went into labour at 41 weeks and it was at that point we heard those word “i’m so sorry but your baby has died” and in that moment our lives ended, our hearts stopped and we thought we would never smile again. 

Francesca was “still born” a perfectly beautiful little baby girl at 6.01am that morning weighing 8lb11oz ad 22 1/2 inches long. She looked just like her daddy with her mummies hands. There’s not a day goes by where our hearts don’t break without her here and wish more than anything we could have been one of the lucky families that get to bring their baby home from the hospital. We both found this to be one of the loneliest times of our lives as we never knew anyone else who had been through anything similar . We left hospital without our baby and in her place was a memory box and some leaflets on funeral arrangements, post mortems and a stillbirth certificate.  The weeks following were worse and lonelier than we could imagine even though we were surrounded by caring friends and family. The urge to create something that would leave more memories for our little princess was overwhelming and it was in that moment I searched the tag “stillbirth” on Instagram and a whole new community opened up to me with pages full of amazing mummies and daddies fighting to create a legacy for the babies they lost too. These pages showed hope for me in that moment and that there is a chance you can survive this pain .. there is hope left somewhere and within these pages and blogs a little glimmer of that hope came from within me that maybe special little baby’s story could maybe help someone else just like us one day and that’s where For Francesca began.

Over the last year my blog has now now grown and evolved into a story of hope for us after her little miracle brother was born in January 2019 so now our story continues to looking for life after loss while trying to be a parent too. So now our little family is made up of Francesca & Leos daddy, Steven, Our little Leo , Dakota the lovable husky and of course our wee Francesca watching over us from her little cloud xxx


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